I never know what to say or think when my father talks to me about his experiences working at a historically black college.
I usually end up feeling pretty hurt, since he’s been the recipient of a lot of internalized racism from other POC, even though he is also denied a lot of the same privileges since he is a dark-skinned Latin American immigrant.
Like how his black superiors have told him straight to his face that he will never become an administrator/higher-up despite being head of the engineering department and teaching there for 40+ years because he is not black. (Tbh I’m not 100% sure if this is because of internalized racism, or if its just how the collegiate system works and its out of the administrator’s hands, anyone who can fill me in on this give a heads up!)
Or when a fellow colleague of his (also a POC, of Middle Eastern descent) continued to treat him poorly because he didn’t receive a promotion since they decided to give it to my father instead, and only began talking to him like a human being again because my father helped save his life after he had a stroke in his office.
And I understand that most of this hate is pretty valid, but at the same time I’m not going to deny that I wish that fellow POC didn’t hate on each other so much.
Like, I understand that nobody’s experiences are the same and its wrong to assume so, but I’m sure we have a lot more in common with each other than non-POC… right?
tagged as: POC. collegiate systems. feels. historically black colleges. internalized racism. personal stuff. racism. black. brown. people of color.
posted on December 11, 2012